Hey folks, Ida asked an interesting question to everyone on the Write-Along and I wanted to ask folks here.
How is everyone finding getting back to normal? Lockdowns are starting to lift and things are slowly creeping back to normal, and I wondered how people are finding it, having to adapt back to regular life. I am even more socially awkward than I was before and on Tuesday I went to the cinema for the first time in 2 years, and I noticed I’ve changed! Having watched so much on my laptop and always having my phone by my side, it was so hard to concentrate on just the movie and I kept wanting to get up and do different things! 😱 and this is coming from a film buff who LOVES the movies!
Anyone else noticed funny things like this about themselves as we transition back to how things were?
I am getting on neutrally.
I learn a lot about myself throughout last year.
Figure why I was doing everything was to go back to acting.
Thankfully ,I came up with a plan, given consistency and frequency, plan might be a success.
Found out my poetry might be extremely generic... nuff said.
Have a job, to support crazy dream.
Notice weird need for carbonated drinks.
Figure I MUST start dopamine fast SOON ,since my poor brain might be getting damage from all music and nonsense I'm putting in my ears. Might focus on reading more, since my hypothesis telling me part of the reason why my poetry,(maybe art) is generic is there isn't enough exploration I allow in my life.
Which explains why I've been looking at conservatory (Performing art schools), poetry programs, along with reading poetry books and watching movies, would take my craft to a whole new level.
Also realize my need to go back on stage, since I alluded this before, acting made me the happiest human I ever been. I am planning to come back on stage in some capacity (spoken word or even a freaking extra in play, I really don't care, just want to be on stage dang nabbit lol.)
I also learn I'm either loving myself as human or hate myself as an artist. Perhaps its because I closely attach myself as an artist for so long, that whenever I'm not the artist, I'm a lot kinder to myself. When its time for me to be the artist, I create from dark place. Only problem is there really hasn't been any darkness, so to speak, which seems to make my creations meaningless. Moreover, my hatred towards myself is what helps me create, which could be why art has not been created, so to speak.
I also realize depending on the walks one takes, its more than just one thing. For instance, this year, I've taken more of a role of editor, since in previous years, I been writing poetry. However, editing my own work is something I did not expect, at all. Thankfully, I don't have to make the art cover, just rough sketch of it. Point is, within one walk, there are many untraveled roads towards final destination.
I do prefer to be silent, however, unless I'm given a reason, to, I will speak. And Poetry Cove has given me a reason too.
I also hate customer service, period, however, I am extremely limited to what I can do. Thankfully, plan doesn't involve college, just involves me to be my own boss and think things strategically. Very long answer, figure I give answer time to marinate before dinner was finish.