Mortality. It's a funny thing, and reading Atwood's Dearly again today hit me as it always does, especially because mortality is a big thing in my head... death being my greatest fear, not to mention I turned 29 on the 5th of this month (I know so old right) and I don't know how I feel about being in the last year of my 20s.
Do you feel like you have all the time in the world to do what you want?
I will say everyone talks about the 20's being the best years, but wait until next year when you're 30. I loved my 30's so much. I embrace my 40's even more (I'm 41), because it is liberating to be comfortable being me and not worrying about judgement. At this point in my life if someone said they didn't like me, more power to them! LOL. Onto the question at hand! I have two kids, so I don't have a lot of time for anything, but in the midst of working a full time job in communications/government, taking care of them, it leaves little time to myself. I carve out 2 hours a day to write, because I want to publish a book. It's something I have always wanted to do and I have been putting it off for years! I also love working out, so I make time for that. Everything else is a wash and that's ok. I have learned to accept that there are things I will have to let go.
I fear death only because I don't want to leave my kids behind. I know this sounds weird, but I think about it a lot. Death is frightening, because there is no turning back. It's final. I also think the way of going is what is what freaks me out the most. Everyone wants that quiet death in a warm bed like that old lady from Titantic, but that is not going to be everyone's reality.
I read Darwin awards often and avoid stupid mistakes such as eating slugs (dude got paralyzed then died years later) or taking selfies next to giant cliffs.