Mortality. It's a funny thing, and reading Atwood's Dearly again today hit me as it always does, especially because mortality is a big thing in my head... death being my greatest fear, not to mention I turned 29 on the 5th of this month (I know so old right) and I don't know how I feel about being in the last year of my 20s.
Do you feel like you have all the time in the world to do what you want?
I will say everyone talks about the 20's being the best years, but wait until next year when you're 30. I loved my 30's so much. I embrace my 40's even more (I'm 41), because it is liberating to be comfortable being me and not worrying about judgement. At this point in my life if someone said they didn't like me, more power to them! LOL. Onto the question at hand! I have two kids, so I don't have a lot of time for anything, but in the midst of working a full time job in communications/government, taking care of them, it leaves little time to myself. I carve out 2 hours a day to write, because I want to publish a book. It's something I have always wanted to do and I have been putting it off for years! I also love working out, so I make time for that. Everything else is a wash and that's ok. I have learned to accept that there are things I will have to let go.
I fear death only because I don't want to leave my kids behind. I know this sounds weird, but I think about it a lot. Death is frightening, because there is no turning back. It's final. I also think the way of going is what is what freaks me out the most. Everyone wants that quiet death in a warm bed like that old lady from Titantic, but that is not going to be everyone's reality.
I read Darwin awards often and avoid stupid mistakes such as eating slugs (dude got paralyzed then died years later) or taking selfies next to giant cliffs.
Yes.
Time is a limited construction humans set upon themselves.A metric that humans can never get back.
Remember a time where I really want it all.I wanted this.I wanted that.It wasn't until January this year that I know exactly what I wanted,not only career,but my own life.As it turns out,I really wanted a few things.Yes,only a few.An acting career,and at least ONE creative endeavor to take off(Poetry, and/or Podcast.)Aside from living by myself,everything else(Travel,Love,Wealth) will come with patience,persistence and repetition in whatever one decides to do with themself.
I cannot speak for everybody.For myself though,I do have time.The question for me actually is:How far am I progressing towards my life vision?A long,LONG way to go.However,in terms of Mortality,its true in that we don't really know how long we have until day of death.Which is why I don't think about death.I think more of life within my years,than permanent death already coming.
Simply because,death already will happen.
Thats definite.What isn't is what one does with their time before they get there.If one stays focus on their path,journey eventually unfold.So many things,but more one thinks about what they want to do,the more they not creating life they were born to live.
In otherwards,were here to create an adventure for us to look back on,and pass down what we live through for next generation of humans to follow.It doesn't matter about age.Its what you do with your age that counts.Whats been true to me is that the only reason why I think there wouldn't be as much time is because I just simply wanted alot of things.However,if I really am align with my north star,I only want a few things.Not many.However,simplicity makes success achievable,in otherwards,whatever ones does within life,they will accomplish by believing,investing and growing within themself.